I like anger!

It’s such an amazing creative power fuel to get or stay in motion/motivation,movement. To fill the body with life force, to create boundaries so I can surrender to this life energy.

It took a while for me to allow myself to let this energy flow in me without following the impulse to discharge it in the outside through blaming others or any form of violenence or to use it as a selfdestroying weapon (ending up in depression). Often I would rather collapse out of fear to feel this immense life power. Fear of it’s power to trigger traumatic memories. I would rather freeze.

Now I am finally able to face my anger and experience this pure energy wave in a new way. I surrender to its movement, waking the tigress, letting the body express in movement, making faces, fletching teeth, stomp, kick, scribble scrabble or make a color mess on paper …whatever …

I experience this powerful transformation with wonder in myself. And I observe it in my clients that give themselves permission to express their anger through body movement, how the wave turns into passion, pleasure, lust, power, heat and natural grounding that can now flow into their creative projects.

I’m really grateful that I can tap into enough anger to fuel me. For once all the crap of the past is useful. …

Don’t become a ticking bomb with your unexpressed anger! Learn to channel it to fuel you creatively in a safe space to experience the true life creating power. Perfect if you have lots of trauma experiences! It’s time to unlock your life force for good things to happen in your life! Connect with me if you need a witness or someone holding space and ground!

 

Originally this article was published in “InTouch” Spring 2014 – Newsletter of the Barbara Brennan School of Healing (BBSH).

Antonia Wibke Heidelmann_PortraitDuring my study years I‘ve often doodled interesting creatures and patterns while listening to lectures. At BBSHE I started to pay more attention to what I was actually creating without an agenda. I was curious if these weird, magic and seemingly non-sense images – just like dreams – might reveal unconscious aspects of the soul and if I could uncode the images with intentional practice using drawing as a creative tool to access my guidance. I committed to a playful 90 day drawing experiment giving myself the freedom & space to explore, be curious and see what would manifest. This way doodling became my unique way to connect with myself, express and process feelings while intuitively moving the pen like my inner seismograph. After each drawing I felt charged with a sense of joy and wonder in recognizing whatever I associated with the lines and colors before me.

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Through the practice of Witnessing-Asking-Experiencing* (WAE) of the creative process, using my imagination and putting my analytical mind to good use I started to read the drawings with more clarity. I recognized faces, repetitive shapes, patterns, colors, etc. and noticed what they meant for me symbolically and what feelings they‘d invoke. Channeled Drawing became a creative healing tool for myself, and I began to understand how to uncode my intuitive visual language as guidance.

I was curious what would happen if I drew for others while connecting with their multidimensional being, wondering if it would reveal valuable information for them as it did for me. I noticed the significance of what people associated with what they saw and how that reflected their own state of multidimensional being (essence, blocks, longings etc.). Sharing observations with each other and using our imagination became a playful way to connect deeper and to understand guidance clearer. Often I literally unknowingly depicted things/people from someone‘s „real“ life. It still startles me and keeps me curios to explore more.

As I started to see the value & magic of these drawings (and myself) the idea to offer channeled drawing as a service was born. Clients were attracted naturally as I shared my drawings online. Spirit truly guided & challenged me to surrender to the unknown & trust my intuition even more deeply while expanding my essence circle: First I drew for people I knew closely, then people I hardly knew and then clients I never met before. I even got to channel for a known actress and a whole group of people for a global event. Recently I was asked to create 2 series of drawings for a known creative spiritual leader to spark her business growth.

I noticed that people like artwork as a physical representation of energy and that intuitive drawings have the potential to initiate healing. Stimulating the right brain through imagination and wonder the client naturally opens the receiving channels while also putting the left brain to good use for reflection. I experienced that playfulness & intuitive art make a significant difference to create awareness & transformation with more ease.

Because I kept seeing it as a playful experiment, I felt free of expectations and this helped me to open my channel (High Sense Perception), to dance with the unknown, to enjoy observing the creative life force manifesting whatever wanted to show itself, and to value my creations as „good enough“. I actually physically witnessed how judgements, fear etc. stopped my creative flow because the pen would stop moving. Until this day I keep learning so much from witnessing myself in the creative process and its gifts for my life keep unfolding.

Channeled Drawing: Alignment

Through channeled drawing I discovered a practical tool to being with, creating from and valuing my essence. Connecting with people and sustaining myself financially has been the most challenging in my life. Through this project I‘m experiencing a shift: Instead of convincing people (and myself) how „good“ I am to get hired/loved, I‘m witnessing that in nurturing and honoring my essence creatively my field naturally expands to the people who resonate, feel inspired and reflect value back to me even financially.

I am now integrating the creative channeling process with Brennan Healing Science® in my practice (Creative Transformation Sessions) so clients learn to use their own creative expression to communicate with their higher self to clear life issues and nurture their unique essence. I started offering creative channeling playdates for groups to give room for free expression and facilitate creative awareness to receive guidance, healing and essential fulfillment. I‘m dreaming of facilitating creative intuition workshops globally and to co-create playful healing experiences with other transformation agents. (If this is you, let‘s connect!)

I am extremely grateful to realize that this project offered fulfillment of my initial longing for coming to the Barbara Brennan School of Healing: to find my own way to reconnect with people, to clarify my purpose for being here and to unify my diverse skills to be of service to others and built a successful business based on my passion.

„When imagination is focused with intention and purpose – reality is transformed.“ Matt Kahn

Curious to receive your own Personal Channeled Drawing Reading? Find out more info here: Personal Channled Drawing for Guidance and Healing in life and business.

Read what my clients say about their experience receiving a Channeled Drawing here.

If you liked or felt inspired by this article, please go ahead and share it with your friends and people you think like this article. Thank you.Originally this article was published in “InTouch” Spring 2014 – Newsletter of the Barbara Brennan School of Healing (BBSH).

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Yeahhhh…. I finished the 30 Day “Vamp Up Your Visibility” Video Challenge completing more than 30 Videos in the past month. I started on March 1st and today is the last day of this challenge. It has been an incredible transformative experience that I like to share about in the next blog article.

For the last video of this series I decided to create a channeled drawing to receive a message/guidance for all my fellow creative spirits who entered this challenge lead by the wonderful Michelle White Hart and everyone watching my videos of course and all who perhaps have the same longing to be seen and heard in a new way to expand their awareness, their self-love, their business etc.

So here in this video you can witness the creative process how I received the Channeled Drawing. And below you’ll find the image of the drawing that you are welcome to safe to your computer as an inspiration and reminder of the channeled messages that you receive from this. You will also find another video below where I give a Reading of the drawing in the way my intuitive guidance was talking to me. Of course this is an individual reading… and I encourage you to look at the drawing and communicate with it yourself to receive the messages that are meant for you as you see what you need to see and that might be different from what I see.

Feel free to share your insights, comments and questions below in the comments. I’d be happy to receive/answer them.

With love, gratitude and cosmic giggles,
Antonia W*bke

The Channeling Process:

The Channeled Drawing:

Channeled Drawing Video Visibility

The Reading:

Love to receive a your very own individual personal Channeled Drawing Reading? Check out my offers when you click here!Yeahhhh…. I finished the 30 Day “Vamp Up Your Visibility” Video Challenge completing more than 30 Videos in the past month. I started on March 1st and today is the last day of this challenge. It has been an incredible transformative experience that I like to share about in the next blog article.

For the last video of this series I decided to create a channeled drawing to receive a message/guidance for all my fellow creative spirits who entered this challenge lead by the wonderful Michelle White Hart and everyone watching my videos of course and all who perhaps have the same longing to be seen and heard in a new way to expand their awareness, their self-love, their business etc.

So here in this video you can witness the creative process how I received the Channeled Drawing. And below you’ll find the image of the drawing that you are welcome to safe to your computer as an inspiration and reminder of the channeled messages that you receive from this. You will also find another video below where I give a Reading of the drawing in the way my intuitive guidance was talking to me. Of course this is an individual reading… and I encourage you to look at the drawing and communicate with it yourself to receive the messages that are meant for you as you see what you need to see and that might be different from what I see.

Feel free to share your insights, comments and questions below in the comments. I’d be happy to receive/answer them.

With love, gratitude and cosmic giggles,
Antonia W*bke

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Know the feeling when you recognize you’ve been running from that emptiness inside? When I do, I get really busy, watch TV shows and movies, talk to friends, spend hours on the computer or get attached to someone who makes me feel nice, needed and connected, some people do workshops one after another, party, eat, don’t eat, drink, smoke, have sex or do whatever to keep the mind and heart from feeling that emptiness, that part that we believe to be missing inside. What we’re running from is feeling fear. A fear that there’s nothing for us, we’re nothing substantial and nobody is there for us. We’re alone and we believe that means lonely. I assume most people feel this fear to some degree perhaps sometimes we don’t even recognize it as fear. It’s OK. However, to keep running for a longer period of time some of these avoidance habits to feel this fear develop into patterns and emotional perhaps also physical addictions. Some are very subtle and difficult to detect on our own.

I have done it for years. I developed my favorite addictions… some of them I am not even aware to call them as such yet. Only when I “loose” a “fulfilling” outside source, something or someone I had been getting attached to for whatever the reason the fear of feeling that emptiness, becomes so strong that is more challenging to run away and more clear the ways that I find to do it anyways.

Well being in that part of the cycle again, I have challenged myself to choose to really dare face this fear this time. I am choosing to be with it – give it space and stop continuing whatever addictive behavior I notice – that keeps me feeling unfulfilled anyhow.

And then a few days ago I received a gift. I found myself  in a black space, a black room. Darkness. However despite my fear I felt a calmness, a safety, stillness… and as I contiinued to just be in that space a sense of peace came over me. And then I started to recognize an interesting sensation, that of being excited. A dawning of unlimited potential, unmanifested ideas, a fullness of sorts yet without being materialized. A full emptiness. And it seemed to be at the center of everything. I guess that is what Quantum physics calls the zero point. It’s like a black hole, dark matter and it has sooooo so much energy and power.

Further, I observed that if the pulse of that unmanifested potential vibrates at such a rate that it passes a threshold (whatever that is)… it turns into a strike of lightning, igniting a bright starlight, omnidirectional essence and with focusing on this impulse that light gets a direction. It’s seems to be a mission and the light becomes an idea that is landing like a plane on the speed way becoming slower and slower and denser until it seems to almost stop moving to manifest into some form, whatever it’s intention, impulse, original idea was.

To me the whole thing appeared visually while sitting in the center of the black velvet void (as Barbara Brennan called it). This experience was truly transforming my fear of that emptiness. It’s one thing to know about the process of creation (as I learnt it in the Barbara Brennan School of Healing and other schools) and another to really experience and observe it so viscerally inside myself and in the context of facing my fear. I could feel my body relaxing in places I wasn’t even aware I held a tension. I was breathing deeper and felt at awe.

Now when I recognize I am keeping myself busy somehow and I recognize fear creeping or luring in some corner of my day … I dare to stop more often what I am doing, to be with that emptiness I am fearing, tolerating the feelings to pass through until I feel the soothing centering stillness again, until I recognize emptiness’s fullness of unmanifested potential and feel peace again knowing how I can create whatever I intend from inside that space inside me.

You dare to share in the comments what you’re favorite addictions are?

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Creating a Channeled Drawing Series for Laura Hollick from Soul Art Studio

I am so delighted to present you the Personal Channeled Drawing Series I did for the wonderful Laura Hollick from Soul Art Studio. Over the last months I channeled these images for Laura to receive guidance and spiritual insights for her Nü business and life.

Growing trust

It was a new growth in my own practice as a drawing medium to hold Laura’s specific questions and intentions while I was channeling the images. I am truly amazed how I have been able to deepen my trust and surrender to this creative practice growing my capacity to hold the space for a succesfull creative-spiritual entrepreneur which keep surprizing me in the way images manifest.

Deep Gratitude

For many years Laura has been a guiding north star for me, through embodying her creative power in service of awakening and creative activation. She has modeled for me how I can truly own my creativity in the unique and fulfilling ways as it flows through me. She is a benevolent mentor and highly attuned to her own spirit and that of her tribe.

 

» Wibke’s ability to express spiritual wisdom through her channeled drawings is incredible! I have had the honor of experiencing 10 channeled drawings and each one has deepened my awareness and opened me to understand my issues and challenges in nü empowering ways. I continue to enjoy the beauty and brilliance of Wibke’s channeled drawings and I know I will for years to come! «

Laura HollickSoulArt Shaman, CanadaSoulart Studio

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