»THE ART OF REVEALING« has been my soul calling and creative initiation journey into daring self-leadership that I’ve been exploring very consciously for the last 3 years. After not feeling fulfilled with a separate private practices as an energy healer, intuitive artist and doing personal branding work as a designer for my clients I wanted to create something that would bring both passions together and I longed to be more fully expressed in my presence in the world.

This revealing path led me to different places inside of myself and in the world that held much power for me and didn’t left any stones unturned. I followed my inner leadership to use, deepen and embody my creative and intuitive gifts. I traveled to ancient power places around the world activating & remembering my soul’s calling.

My deepest soul fire emerged when life brought me into the court room to face the man who raped me. Life presented me an once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to reveal and witness the strength of my own soul.  With the sentence in my favor it unexpectedly lead me to owning my basic trust in life back and in my soul path to find my way back out of isolation into deeply felt connection and purpose within my own being. 

Motivated by the desire to create a journey for others who wish to be more fully expressed in life and their business and to provide a safe discovery space to own their creative power back – hidden in untold stories, secrets or challenging life experiences – I created “THE ART OF REVEALING”– School of Creative Liberation & Daring Leadership. For courageous Change Agents who no longer hold back their full expression because they have a message to share. 

The first mentorship program will start in March and will open for registration in February 2019.

As this first revealing journey will be calling in brave adventurous souls, Awi has been interviewing a few of her colleagues, friends, fellow travelers and daring leaders about their own path of revealing, daring to be heard & seen with their stories, owning their full creative expression in service to humanity & the planet and healing issues of fear & disconnection on the way.

  • How can we use our wounds & returning challenges to reveal a deeper calling & activate our full creative expression?

  • How do we rewrite our stories, dare to reveal ourselves and own our place in the world from a deep sense of enough-ness, trust and connection?

  • How to use our creative expression to reveal deeper truth about ourselves and train our daring muscles for authentic leadership?


Author, Speaker and Founder of »the Conscious Bedtime Story Club«

and will continue every Sunday after with:

Body Researcher, Best-Selling Autor & Seminar Leader, Creatrix of Kalis Kuss

Transformational Artist, Founder of Lightschool Arts

Advocat of Play and Movement Based Creativity and Creatrix of The Angel Bird

FEB 17 – AWI (Antonia Wibke Heidelmann)
Creatrix of FULLY SEEN & The Art Of Revealing

You can read more about the series and the speakers and sign up for free access here 

We also have a FB Group here you can join and where you can find the links, ask questions, give feedback or ask for support.


I like anger!

It’s such an amazing creative power fuel to get or stay in motion/motivation,movement. To fill the body with life force, to create boundaries so I can surrender to this life energy.

It took a while for me to allow myself to let this energy flow in me without following the impulse to discharge it in the outside through blaming others or any form of violenence or to use it as a selfdestroying weapon (ending up in depression). Often I would rather collapse out of fear to feel this immense life power. Fear of it’s power to trigger traumatic memories. I would rather freeze.

Now I am finally able to face my anger and experience this pure energy wave in a new way. I surrender to its movement, waking the tigress, letting the body express in movement, making faces, fletching teeth, stomp, kick, scribble scrabble or make a color mess on paper …whatever …

I experience this powerful transformation with wonder in myself. And I observe it in my clients that give themselves permission to express their anger through body movement, how the wave turns into passion, pleasure, lust, power, heat and natural grounding that can now flow into their creative projects.

I’m really grateful that I can tap into enough anger to fuel me. For once all the crap of the past is useful. …

Don’t become a ticking bomb with your unexpressed anger! Learn to channel it to fuel you creatively in a safe space to experience the true life creating power. Perfect if you have lots of trauma experiences! It’s time to unlock your life force for good things to happen in your life! Connect with me if you need a witness or someone holding space and ground!


Originally this article was published in “InTouch” Spring 2014 – Newsletter of the Barbara Brennan School of Healing (BBSH).

Antonia Wibke Heidelmann_PortraitDuring my study years I‘ve often doodled interesting creatures and patterns while listening to lectures. At BBSHE I started to pay more attention to what I was actually creating without an agenda. I was curious if these weird, magic and seemingly non-sense images – just like dreams – might reveal unconscious aspects of the soul and if I could uncode the images with intentional practice using drawing as a creative tool to access my guidance. I committed to a playful 90 day drawing experiment giving myself the freedom & space to explore, be curious and see what would manifest. This way doodling became my unique way to connect with myself, express and process feelings while intuitively moving the pen like my inner seismograph. After each drawing I felt charged with a sense of joy and wonder in recognizing whatever I associated with the lines and colors before me.

awh Channeled Drawing Selection

Through the practice of Witnessing-Asking-Experiencing* (WAE) of the creative process, using my imagination and putting my analytical mind to good use I started to read the drawings with more clarity. I recognized faces, repetitive shapes, patterns, colors, etc. and noticed what they meant for me symbolically and what feelings they‘d invoke. Channeled Drawing became a creative healing tool for myself, and I began to understand how to uncode my intuitive visual language as guidance.

I was curious what would happen if I drew for others while connecting with their multidimensional being, wondering if it would reveal valuable information for them as it did for me. I noticed the significance of what people associated with what they saw and how that reflected their own state of multidimensional being (essence, blocks, longings etc.). Sharing observations with each other and using our imagination became a playful way to connect deeper and to understand guidance clearer. Often I literally unknowingly depicted things/people from someone‘s „real“ life. It still startles me and keeps me curios to explore more.

As I started to see the value & magic of these drawings (and myself) the idea to offer channeled drawing as a service was born. Clients were attracted naturally as I shared my drawings online. Spirit truly guided & challenged me to surrender to the unknown & trust my intuition even more deeply while expanding my essence circle: First I drew for people I knew closely, then people I hardly knew and then clients I never met before. I even got to channel for a known actress and a whole group of people for a global event. Recently I was asked to create 2 series of drawings for a known creative spiritual leader to spark her business growth.

I noticed that people like artwork as a physical representation of energy and that intuitive drawings have the potential to initiate healing. Stimulating the right brain through imagination and wonder the client naturally opens the receiving channels while also putting the left brain to good use for reflection. I experienced that playfulness & intuitive art make a significant difference to create awareness & transformation with more ease.

Because I kept seeing it as a playful experiment, I felt free of expectations and this helped me to open my channel (High Sense Perception), to dance with the unknown, to enjoy observing the creative life force manifesting whatever wanted to show itself, and to value my creations as „good enough“. I actually physically witnessed how judgements, fear etc. stopped my creative flow because the pen would stop moving. Until this day I keep learning so much from witnessing myself in the creative process and its gifts for my life keep unfolding.

Channeled Drawing: Alignment

Through channeled drawing I discovered a practical tool to being with, creating from and valuing my essence. Connecting with people and sustaining myself financially has been the most challenging in my life. Through this project I‘m experiencing a shift: Instead of convincing people (and myself) how „good“ I am to get hired/loved, I‘m witnessing that in nurturing and honoring my essence creatively my field naturally expands to the people who resonate, feel inspired and reflect value back to me even financially.

I am now integrating the creative channeling process with Brennan Healing Science® in my practice (Creative Transformation Sessions) so clients learn to use their own creative expression to communicate with their higher self to clear life issues and nurture their unique essence. I started offering creative channeling playdates for groups to give room for free expression and facilitate creative awareness to receive guidance, healing and essential fulfillment. I‘m dreaming of facilitating creative intuition workshops globally and to co-create playful healing experiences with other transformation agents. (If this is you, let‘s connect!)

I am extremely grateful to realize that this project offered fulfillment of my initial longing for coming to the Barbara Brennan School of Healing: to find my own way to reconnect with people, to clarify my purpose for being here and to unify my diverse skills to be of service to others and built a successful business based on my passion.

„When imagination is focused with intention and purpose – reality is transformed.“ Matt Kahn

Curious to receive your own Personal Channeled Drawing Reading? Find out more info here: Personal Channled Drawing for Guidance and Healing in life and business.

Read what my clients say about their experience receiving a Channeled Drawing here.

If you liked or felt inspired by this article, please go ahead and share it with your friends and people you think like this article. Thank you.Originally this article was published in “InTouch” Spring 2014 – Newsletter of the Barbara Brennan School of Healing (BBSH).



Know the feeling when you recognize you’ve been running from that emptiness inside? When I do, I get really busy, watch TV shows and movies, talk to friends, spend hours on the computer or get attached to someone who makes me feel nice, needed and connected, some people do workshops one after another, party, eat, don’t eat, drink, smoke, have sex or do whatever to keep the mind and heart from feeling that emptiness, that part that we believe to be missing inside. What we’re running from is feeling fear. A fear that there’s nothing for us, we’re nothing substantial and nobody is there for us. We’re alone and we believe that means lonely. I assume most people feel this fear to some degree perhaps sometimes we don’t even recognize it as fear. It’s OK. However, to keep running for a longer period of time some of these avoidance habits to feel this fear develop into patterns and emotional perhaps also physical addictions. Some are very subtle and difficult to detect on our own.

I have done it for years. I developed my favorite addictions… some of them I am not even aware to call them as such yet. Only when I “loose” a “fulfilling” outside source, something or someone I had been getting attached to for whatever the reason the fear of feeling that emptiness, becomes so strong that is more challenging to run away and more clear the ways that I find to do it anyways.

Well being in that part of the cycle again, I have challenged myself to choose to really dare face this fear this time. I am choosing to be with it – give it space and stop continuing whatever addictive behavior I notice – that keeps me feeling unfulfilled anyhow.

And then a few days ago I received a gift. I found myself  in a black space, a black room. Darkness. However despite my fear I felt a calmness, a safety, stillness… and as I contiinued to just be in that space a sense of peace came over me. And then I started to recognize an interesting sensation, that of being excited. A dawning of unlimited potential, unmanifested ideas, a fullness of sorts yet without being materialized. A full emptiness. And it seemed to be at the center of everything. I guess that is what Quantum physics calls the zero point. It’s like a black hole, dark matter and it has sooooo so much energy and power.

Further, I observed that if the pulse of that unmanifested potential vibrates at such a rate that it passes a threshold (whatever that is)… it turns into a strike of lightning, igniting a bright starlight, omnidirectional essence and with focusing on this impulse that light gets a direction. It’s seems to be a mission and the light becomes an idea that is landing like a plane on the speed way becoming slower and slower and denser until it seems to almost stop moving to manifest into some form, whatever it’s intention, impulse, original idea was.

To me the whole thing appeared visually while sitting in the center of the black velvet void (as Barbara Brennan called it). This experience was truly transforming my fear of that emptiness. It’s one thing to know about the process of creation (as I learnt it in the Barbara Brennan School of Healing and other schools) and another to really experience and observe it so viscerally inside myself and in the context of facing my fear. I could feel my body relaxing in places I wasn’t even aware I held a tension. I was breathing deeper and felt at awe.

Now when I recognize I am keeping myself busy somehow and I recognize fear creeping or luring in some corner of my day … I dare to stop more often what I am doing, to be with that emptiness I am fearing, tolerating the feelings to pass through until I feel the soothing centering stillness again, until I recognize emptiness’s fullness of unmanifested potential and feel peace again knowing how I can create whatever I intend from inside that space inside me.

You dare to share in the comments what you’re favorite addictions are?