I like anger!

It’s such an amazing creative power fuel to get or stay in motion/motivation,movement. To fill the body with life force, to create boundaries so I can surrender to this life energy.

It took a while for me to allow myself to let this energy flow in me without following the impulse to discharge it in the outside through blaming others or any form of violenence or to use it as a selfdestroying weapon (ending up in depression). Often I would rather collapse out of fear to feel this immense life power. Fear of it’s power to trigger traumatic memories. I would rather freeze.

Now I am finally able to face my anger and experience this pure energy wave in a new way. I surrender to its movement, waking the tigress, letting the body express in movement, making faces, fletching teeth, stomp, kick, scribble scrabble or make a color mess on paper …whatever …

I experience this powerful transformation with wonder in myself. And I observe it in my clients that give themselves permission to express their anger through body movement, how the wave turns into passion, pleasure, lust, power, heat and natural grounding that can now flow into their creative projects.

I’m really grateful that I can tap into enough anger to fuel me. For once all the crap of the past is useful. …

Don’t become a ticking bomb with your unexpressed anger! Learn to channel it to fuel you creatively in a safe space to experience the true life creating power. Perfect if you have lots of trauma experiences! It’s time to unlock your life force for good things to happen in your life! Connect with me if you need a witness or someone holding space and ground!


Everyone has an Inner Artist!

Your Inner Artist is that divine spark of inspiration that flows with the juice of your unique expression. All you need to do to awaken your Inner Artist is create a sacred space for your Inner Artist to come out and play.


I am super thrilled that I am invited to join my mentor and dear Soul SeeStar Laura Hollick this year live in the Studio in Canada. And tuning into this event this Channeled Drawing came through… so you get a taste of what to expect!!! Pretty hot if you ask me!!!

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Let’s make an Artist date together!

I am calling your Inner Artist to join me on International Soul Art Day, happening May 27th, to awaken your divine spark and activate your unique creative expression.  Get all the details and sign up here: http://www.soulartday.com

International Soul Art Day is a live global event where thousands of creative spirits gather virtually from around the world to create art together for the day.  Laura Hollick, the creator of Soul Art, will guide us through a Soul Art process along with 4 Sacred Soul Art Rituals.

I’ll be there, and I hope you’ll join us to awaken your Inner Artist. The world needs your unique expression!

Sign up for International Soul Art Day now. It’s free: http://www.soulartday.com


I’ve been trying out and experimenting with another App called “Sketch” by Tayasui on my iphone. I love the possibility to draw into photos directly on my phone… lazy bug that I am!!!

Here’s are my Spring Greeting Cards for you!! And a fun Selfie (Dubble + PixlExpress + Sketch)!



Ich experimentiere grad mit einer neuen App “Sketch” by Tayasui auf meinem iphone. Diese ist umsonst aber es gibt natürlich eine PRO Variante, bei der man auch Fotos importieren und “bemalen” kann. Total genial.

Hier sind meine ersten beiden Frühlingsgrusskarten. Und noch ein Selfie (Dubble, PixlExpress+, Sketch)

Mögt, teilt, säet und schreibt mir- wenn Ihr wollt! Happy Spring-ing!


I am delighted to share some amazing nature stills with you from my recent vacation on the beautiful peninsula “Darss” in North East Germany. I’ve spend my childhood summers here in East German times and now many years later coming back to this part and finding the energy of the island as enchanting as I did as a kid. Here are some stills for you to enjoy. Almost like painted, don’t you think?

Here is a new dubble series that focuses on the various expressions, feelings, superpowers of the heart. Feel free to share what you recognize as your own heart superpowers.


Heart Powers – Part 1 – click to enlarge

Many thanks to the dubblers and image contributors:
wibstar, helopuro, mattes-soulpictures, delberty, pinterest

One of my latest fun creative essence infusion play & guidance tools is Dubble.

Dubble is a free iPhone app (and it’s been developed for Android as well…) that I happen to bump into in divine timing and since have become a dubble maniac enjoying the random yet surprizing dubbing, mixing and matching of my images with those of strangers, friends and my own. Since the beginning I was amazed how often my images started to get a whole new and poignant meaning. Not just looking cool but often even revealing messages that seemed to hit the spot.

I liked this random play with fortune or guidance (whatever you believe in) so much that I included dubble In my recent Intuitive Creative Adventure Class as a creative guidance and play tool and my playmates really caught the same fire and started using dubble like an oracle. It’s so fun! Not all dubbles make sense and some are just there for the process of revealing the most surprizing masterpieces.

Anyhow when you know me you know I am a cosmic lover (oh wow – or did I just come out with that!??) – anyhow I love images of the galaxies. And inspired by my friends who started playing with star images I started to dubble and it turned into an entire collection or series. What I love about those images that they put things into perspective and reveal another dimension of our being that usually remains hidden to most eyes. As an energy healer however they often remind me of our multidimensional beingness, plus some are just plain funny or weird.

in’joy with cosmic giggles,




And here is the special collection with an important message of the source ;)

Be Good. Don’t Cry. Love Filth. Put the Record on. Rock’n’Roll. Hey Ho Let’s Go! Est. Remain: 18 min. 

Image Credits / Dubble Co-Creators: 
Part 1: pinterst, wibstar, helopuro, enlightener, kratata
Part 2: pinterst, wibstar, helopuro, majoespi
Part 3: pinterst, wibstar, helopuro, shellythepirate, anabolcina, cocaine, rabea
Part 4: pinterst, wibstar, singlesword, delberty, tiggar88, janesaid6, tutu_ting
Part 5: pinterst, wibstar, helopuro, siora, 1989pololee, xideserts, danttin, paisleybird
Part 6: pinterst, wibstar, rcklessabandon, miltim, Imcfreeman, qxzzxq, zhuangxiangliu, raijard, juhivyas
Part 7: pinterest, wibstar, anarchytechture, tattooartist, winnie1706, Itbeefeater
others: tululli
Images of universe are taken from pinterest coming from different sources. Unfortunately I can’t make out all sources or credits. Please forgive me if I didn’t credit an image.
takequickbreak.com, NASA, R Jay Gabany, and others



In honor of my beloved spirit guide Nahuna Kato – a past time warrior me – who becomes rather visible here. He’s got quite a fierce presence and taking no crap for an excuse to venture off the path of the heart. He’s a master in peeking directly into the heart of things and people’s intentions. He’s crystal clear aligned with purpose and passion. Some people fear him – (me too sometimes) yet I trust his heart clarity that also knows how to set boundaries and when it’s time to stand my ground.



Here I am presencing another aspect, guide, essence piece … the tender faery. She teaches me how to communicate with nature beings, to tune into subtle frequencies, to rejoice, giggle and dance in adornment of beauty and creation. She loves coherence, balance, harmony. Yes she’s bit shy and easy chased away by loud noises or sudden movement. She gets quite upset when people disregard nature (aka the beauty of their existence) but she usually comes back when feeling respected. Then she gives her full heart in tender care of another.



In this photo my Inner Child comes out to play in joy and freedom, cosmically giggling in rainbow colors. She loves to be silly and random, nothing can tame her when she is surfing the essence wave of creative life force. She can be a bunch to catch but if you do you’ll be laughing with her or creating something with random things found on the way.


The feminine beauty – the sensual woman. She loves to caress and feel beautiful. She enjoys the intimate touch of silk skin. She nurtures and embraces the ever so tender vulnerable places in herself and others. She knows how to magnetize and move her body to the sweet sounds in the eye of the beloved.



All photos: Uli Mattes
Image Art: Antonia Wibke Heidelmann

Come to play with us in your own individual photoshot to reveal yourself, your hidden personas and become more visible!

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Or connect with me to create an individual photoshoot for you.

This is the guidance I received for this Channeled Drawing I created for International Soul Art Day 2014 hosted by Laura Hollick.

This drawing really stands for creating from our essence when we spiral into our core center held by our heart with loving caring hands and then expanding from this center outward connecting with other essences creating a beautiful network of lights.
It reminds us also of listening in to understand when we need accelerated movement and when it is time to slowing down and to look for a balance between the two.
The alien looking creature tells us to bring out all parts of us as weird and wild they seem to create and fuel our joy of creation. We are always supported in our heArt creations by the universe that rejoices when we nurture our creative essence.

In this video reading I explain the creative guidance in more detail.

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Originally this article was published in “InTouch” Spring 2014 – Newsletter of the Barbara Brennan School of Healing (BBSH).

Antonia Wibke Heidelmann_PortraitDuring my study years I‘ve often doodled interesting creatures and patterns while listening to lectures. At BBSHE I started to pay more attention to what I was actually creating without an agenda. I was curious if these weird, magic and seemingly non-sense images – just like dreams – might reveal unconscious aspects of the soul and if I could uncode the images with intentional practice using drawing as a creative tool to access my guidance. I committed to a playful 90 day drawing experiment giving myself the freedom & space to explore, be curious and see what would manifest. This way doodling became my unique way to connect with myself, express and process feelings while intuitively moving the pen like my inner seismograph. After each drawing I felt charged with a sense of joy and wonder in recognizing whatever I associated with the lines and colors before me.

awh Channeled Drawing Selection

Through the practice of Witnessing-Asking-Experiencing* (WAE) of the creative process, using my imagination and putting my analytical mind to good use I started to read the drawings with more clarity. I recognized faces, repetitive shapes, patterns, colors, etc. and noticed what they meant for me symbolically and what feelings they‘d invoke. Channeled Drawing became a creative healing tool for myself, and I began to understand how to uncode my intuitive visual language as guidance.

I was curious what would happen if I drew for others while connecting with their multidimensional being, wondering if it would reveal valuable information for them as it did for me. I noticed the significance of what people associated with what they saw and how that reflected their own state of multidimensional being (essence, blocks, longings etc.). Sharing observations with each other and using our imagination became a playful way to connect deeper and to understand guidance clearer. Often I literally unknowingly depicted things/people from someone‘s „real“ life. It still startles me and keeps me curios to explore more.

As I started to see the value & magic of these drawings (and myself) the idea to offer channeled drawing as a service was born. Clients were attracted naturally as I shared my drawings online. Spirit truly guided & challenged me to surrender to the unknown & trust my intuition even more deeply while expanding my essence circle: First I drew for people I knew closely, then people I hardly knew and then clients I never met before. I even got to channel for a known actress and a whole group of people for a global event. Recently I was asked to create 2 series of drawings for a known creative spiritual leader to spark her business growth.

I noticed that people like artwork as a physical representation of energy and that intuitive drawings have the potential to initiate healing. Stimulating the right brain through imagination and wonder the client naturally opens the receiving channels while also putting the left brain to good use for reflection. I experienced that playfulness & intuitive art make a significant difference to create awareness & transformation with more ease.

Because I kept seeing it as a playful experiment, I felt free of expectations and this helped me to open my channel (High Sense Perception), to dance with the unknown, to enjoy observing the creative life force manifesting whatever wanted to show itself, and to value my creations as „good enough“. I actually physically witnessed how judgements, fear etc. stopped my creative flow because the pen would stop moving. Until this day I keep learning so much from witnessing myself in the creative process and its gifts for my life keep unfolding.

Channeled Drawing: Alignment

Through channeled drawing I discovered a practical tool to being with, creating from and valuing my essence. Connecting with people and sustaining myself financially has been the most challenging in my life. Through this project I‘m experiencing a shift: Instead of convincing people (and myself) how „good“ I am to get hired/loved, I‘m witnessing that in nurturing and honoring my essence creatively my field naturally expands to the people who resonate, feel inspired and reflect value back to me even financially.

I am now integrating the creative channeling process with Brennan Healing Science® in my practice (Creative Transformation Sessions) so clients learn to use their own creative expression to communicate with their higher self to clear life issues and nurture their unique essence. I started offering creative channeling playdates for groups to give room for free expression and facilitate creative awareness to receive guidance, healing and essential fulfillment. I‘m dreaming of facilitating creative intuition workshops globally and to co-create playful healing experiences with other transformation agents. (If this is you, let‘s connect!)

I am extremely grateful to realize that this project offered fulfillment of my initial longing for coming to the Barbara Brennan School of Healing: to find my own way to reconnect with people, to clarify my purpose for being here and to unify my diverse skills to be of service to others and built a successful business based on my passion.

„When imagination is focused with intention and purpose – reality is transformed.“ Matt Kahn

Curious to receive your own Personal Channeled Drawing Reading? Find out more info here: Personal Channled Drawing for Guidance and Healing in life and business.

Read what my clients say about their experience receiving a Channeled Drawing here.

If you liked or felt inspired by this article, please go ahead and share it with your friends and people you think like this article. Thank you.Originally this article was published in “InTouch” Spring 2014 – Newsletter of the Barbara Brennan School of Healing (BBSH).